Thoughts

Final Semester Self-Reflection and A Lot of Regret

I’m finally living on my own in my own place and have a full-time job at a cheese factory that, while it does pay decent, it’s just barely enough to cover bills and groceries. I’ve also been writing much more often than I did this past summer and back in September after I opened up for story commissions.

It’s not the best situation, financially speaking, but I’m perfectly content with where I’m at…except for one thing.

Have I wasted six years of my life with college? Continue reading

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Stepping back for a while

“You can check out anytime you like,
But you can never leave”

— “Hotel California” The Eagles

Hey guys…

As you may or may not know, I’ve been thinking about a lot of things lately regarding my involvement in the fandom. Between writing stories for either myself or commissioners, getting art for myself or for/from others, roleplaying, and general socializing, it’s starting to get too much for me right now. I’m currently in a very difficult position in my life right now, and I need to start prioritizing where and how I spend my time. Continue reading

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Thoughts on #whatmakesmefurry

Hey Guys~

There’s a new, trending hashtag on Twitter that was started by my friends Wolfletech and Rhye. The goal for this is to allow furries who don’t own fursuits (financial reasons, no desire, or tried it and didn’t like it) and furries who don’t/can’t draw get noticed. Though, I’ll be honest, Wolfletech says it better:
 

 
And I’ve come to know some great people in this fandom, regardless if they draw/own a fursuit or not. Even if they do draw or fursuit, they’re still genuine people who don’t let those get to their head, should they become well-known because of it. They have those talents and window of opportunity that, quite frankly, tend to get more recognition for one, simple fact: we’re a visual fandom that tends to have a short attention span. Yes, there are people in the fandom who have neither or only one or the other, yet still get recognized because of some other talent, a non-artistic contributor to the fandom, or, unfortunately, infamy for…something. I would make a list, but, if you’ve been in this fandom long enough, you’re probably already thinking of a few people in the fandom who fall under the latter description.

I’ve already written a short post when I “joined the fandom” back in early 2015 titled, “Thoughts on Being a Furry”. Some of my thoughts and feelings since writing that have changed; some have not. I’ve experienced quite a lot in this fandom during those two years, and I still love being a part of it, despite its flaws. Continue reading

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More than a passing grade

Well, finished up yet another semester at Platteville, but still not a graduate quite yet; only a couple more classes to go before that can be a reality. This past semester was another rough one though, for a few reasons:

  • I missed out on the Fall semester prior, so it took me some time to get back into the school mindset again.
  • I ended up switching out one class with one called “Personalized Learning Experience,” which I’ll go more into detail later.
  • Between this new course and my other courses, I ended up getting piled on with projects, along with preparing for any exams or quizzes.
  • There were also some life issues that occurred throughout the semester; so those didn’t help any.

However, I am glad that I did pass most of my classes and my GPA hardly changed. I am also happy at the response I got from my advisor about the paper I wrote for my Personalized Learning Experience (PLE) course. All I did for this course was picked a topic, researched it, and wrote a paper on it. If I did it and did it well, I passed; if I didn’t do it well, or not at all, I failed. What I ended up getting was more than a passing grade; I got an opportunity. Continue reading

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Thoughts (Rant?) on Fursuiting

I don’t know why it is, but I’ve been switching between really wanting to get a fursuit and not minding that I don’t have one. While it is true that the majority of furries don’t own one, they’ve almost always been a huge part of the fandom; they’re the first thing outsiders see and think of when furries get brought up. Anytime someone posts a pic of their fursuit, primarily on social media, it almost always gains the most attention, both good and bad. I’ll be honest, this bothers me a bit.

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March 17, 2017 (RANT)

This week…this week has been a mess and I’m glad it’s done and over with now. It goes without saying I never had much of a chance to really enjoy my Spring Break to relax and catch up on schoolwork. I did hang out with…one of my friends for not even a full day, and that’s about all the fun I had this week.

Why? Because I had to help my mom move all her shit from her apartment into a storage locker or my grandma’s trailer. A lot of this stuff she’s never sorted through at all or barely, and so much of my family has told her to go through it. We’ve also moved several times in the past, so it’s not like she didn’t have an opportunity to really get rid of shit she doesn’t need. Sometimes, I fear she’s a bit of a hoarder and is afraid to let things go. It’s sad and it sucks, but stuff piles up fast and it gets to point where you need to go through it before it gets worse and not add to the pile. It’s not bad right now, but it could be worse…a lot worse.

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Feb. 10, 2017

Hey guys, I’ve been gone a while, haven’t I? That shouldn’t be new, honestly; I’ve been quite busy and have had a lot on my mind for the past month or so.

One culprit would definitely have to be college. Yep, finally started that up again a couple weeks ago. Already I feel busy with assignments, many of which are long-term, research projects, which would be understandable at this point in my college career. I currently have two research projects I need to think of a topic/get on the ball with doing research ASAP, plus I have a lot of reading to do for two other classes. Not to mention, there’s exams coming up soon and I need to start getting prepared for those. It’s just been so hard getting back into that mindset after being gone for the summer, fall, and beginning of winter. Continue reading

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Yep, I Like Wrestling Now (Though I Always Did)

Original artwork © Pulex Ricky Paszek and edit © yours truly

Original artwork © Pulex
Ricky Paszek and edit © yours truly

Never would I have guessed I would get into something like this, though a part of me isn’t surprised. It’s strange, but I like the general concept of pro wrestling, and just wrestling in general. I don’t follow any particular wrestling circuits, discuss previous matches with other fans, or even have a favorite wrestler. I’m not even one of those people who’ve liked it ever since I was a kid; I didn’t think much of it. Hell, when I did start liking it, I was actually uncomfortable if people knew that I like it; probably because my mom thought it was stupid or something. By no means do I consider myself a sports buff, and I tend to get annoyed with sports fans at times. I am aware that pro wrestling is scripted, gimmicky, cheesy, and more akin to a theatrical performance than an actual sport. However, lots of athleticism and training go into those matches, if only so the wrestlers can execute the moves correctly. Continue reading

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Sona Sunday – Dec. 18, 2016

Someone on Furry Amino proposed #SonaSunday as an alternative for those who can’t do #FursuitFriday. It’s basically a way for furries to show off their fursonas in whatever way they choose, be it a small gallery of art of their sona, a story, a Q&A, or whatever they like. I decided to use my favorite commission (which I admit I share around way too much) and cleaned up a quick write-up I did where I expressed my frustrations with writing. I think I wrote it a number of months ago (I mention Wolfletech being my boyfriend), but I like it; it’s a good day-in-the-life type of scene for Ricky.

I don’t consider this something I’d put in my writing portfolio/gallery/whatever you want to call it. My intention behind Ricky is for me to portray myself in the furry fandom as true to myself as possible, flaws and all. He has the same personality, goals, dreams, habits, vices, and background as me, though I admit to taking some creative liberties when I wrote his bio.

Anyway, hope you enjoy this small window into a beginning writer’s life. Continue reading

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The One Thing Christians Should Stop Saying

I don’t mind sharing my faith on this blog, nor anything that prompts internal discussion among fellow siblings in Christ. I may have read something like this before on the topic of what it means to “be blessed,” but it’s interesting none the less.

The Accidental Missionary

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I was on the phone with a good friend the other day.  After covering important topics, like disparaging each other’s mothers and retelling semi-factual tales from our college days, our conversation turned to the mundane.

“So, how’s work going?” he asked.

For those of you who don’t know, I make money by teaching leadership skills and helping people learn to get along in corporate America.  My wife says it’s all a clever disguise so I can get up in front of large groups and tell stories.

I plead the fifth.

I answered my buddy’s question with,

“Definitely feeling blessed.  Last year was the best year yet for my business.  And it looks like this year will be just as busy.”

The words rolled off my tongue without a second thought.  Like reciting the Pledge of Allegiance or placing my usual lunch order at McDonald’s.

But it was a lie.

Now…

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