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Midwest Fur Fest 2019

Well, I finally made it to my second MFF this year! Funny thing is, even though it’s been three years since my last MFF, it felt like I was just here last year.

When I first looked around the Hyatt and the Rosemont convention center, I noticed what all they moved around. I believe this is the first year they utilized the convention center too; it was mainly used for Registration, Dealer’s Den, Artist’s Alley, and the Art Show. Compared to three years ago and considering how much this con has grown since then, the larger space for these was much needed. Plus, this allowed more space for the gaming rooms, Con Suite, and other major panels at the Hyatt.

Something that was new this year is the Quiet Room: a special room located in a secluded room at the con where you could get away from all the noise and stimuli of the con. I thought about taking advantage of this to maybe get some writing don during the con without having to go all the way back to my room, as it’s perfect for introverted people like me who tend to get a little anxious around large crowds. However, I didn’t, mainly because I forgot and wanted to check out the con and meet up with friends.

Speaking of friends, I did manage to find quite a few within the first two days of the con (Thursday and Friday), as well as seeing other local furs I know. I was honestly surprised how quickly I found people at this con; I mean, it did beat out Anthrocon last year, making it the largest furry con in the world.

Then there’s my social anxiety that I feared would get the best of me the whole weekend. Surprisingly, it didn’t, at least not too much. There were a few instances I felt a little overwhelmed or shy, but I tried to force myself to get past that as best as I could. Continue reading

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What do you see me as?

Character study by Kevkai on FA, showing all aspects of how I see myself through my fursona.

You may have noticed I changed the title of this blog, along with adding a tagline. To be frank, I have not been an undergrad for almost two years as of this post, and I don’t think I’ll be attending college again in the near future. I won’t go into why that is; I’ve discussed it with numerous friends and acquaintances and it’s a difficult topic for me to talk about without getting emotional. In short: I am thankful for the experiences I’ve had during that time with personal growth and the friends I’ve made, but I did not like how my academic path went, per-se.

During the one and a half years I’ve been out of school, I’ll admit, I don’t feel as stuck as I was during college. Yet, even after moving to Madison in late August/early September and after getting myself in a routine, somewhat, and having a life again…I still feel stuck.

In short, there are three interests of mine I want to pursue and dedicate time towards: writing, nature, and boxing.

Writing is something I wanted to do, and majored in, during my second semester of college. It’s an aspect of me I hold dear and identify as, and I still write to this day when possible. It’s a skill that I’m naturally good at and want to perfect and share with the world (and, in a way, I have). One goal I’ve always wanted to shoot for was to write a novel, regardless if it gets published through a publisher or I self-publish it; it doesn’t matter to me if it “sells” or not. I know I may not be the best writer, but many have come to enjoy the stories and academic papers I’ve written over the years; that’s…something that’s kept me going.

The topic of nature is just as broad as writing, if not more so. But I’m specifically covering Biology and the general appreciation of what’s outside your window. I’m not sure why, but I’ve always been so…fascinated by nature, to some extent: from it’s aesthetic appeal and spiritual significance, to the macro and micro interactions species have with each other and their environment. I used to go on walks every so often to just clear my head on whatever nearby trail I know of that was close; it didn’t have to be at some huge park, just a small trail surrounded by trees, flora, and fauna. I also used to take a lot of pictures with a digital camera and, sometimes, my phone on these walks; thankfully I still have them. It’s no wonder I went for a Biology major and got involved with the furry fandom.

A beautiful YCH I got of my fursona by aoiairon on FA. This one’s easily one of my favorite pieces I’ve commissioned.

Boxing is an interest I’ve had off/on for…quite some time, actually, the same can be said with wrestling. Thing is, I’ve never done either in high school or college (though I did try out a student-run boxing club at college for a couple months). I don’t have a favorite fighter or wrestler, or watch matches very often; I just…like it for what it is, you know? Though, I will admit, within the past few years, this interest sort of…took over. Now, I wasn’t able to find a place close enough to properly train boxing while in Platteville that was less than a half hour away; thankfully the furry fandom provided that outlet, somewhat. I did role play (RP) matches, got art, wrote stories, all centered around wrestling and then boxing. Over time, many viewed me less of a writer and nature-lover, and more as a boxer and wrestler, neither of which I am in person.

I did try boxing again a few months ago, this time taking a couple classes at Ford’s Gym in Madison; it’s definitely what I expect a proper gym to look and feel like and not one that’s part of a chain. I do not regret trying out boxing again and I would’ve gladly continued, though a couple things turned me off about going to that gym in particular:

  1. You were required to register with USA Boxing to spar there. Granted, it was the Wisconsin Golden Gloves “training center,” so to speak, so I can see why. But I invested so much by this point, I didn’t want to spend even more money in case I dropped it again. Also, I have zero interest in competing, but it’s one of the few gyms in Madison that offer boxing lessons/equipment and sparring. Believe me, once you get over that initial fear of getting punched in the face, it can be tons of fun. However, I’m not looking to compete or go pro, and I don’t want to risk getting roped into something I might not enjoy being a part of in the long run or unable to dedicate time towards.
  2. The construction going on around the gym. Good! Lord! I can deal with having to park on the street due to limited parking spaces due to a nearby construction project. What I can’t deal with every time I go is the whole road and then some being torn up end to end, and the route to get on said road changes almost every week. I don’t have a clunker car, but it’s not some mid 2010’s or newer model either; I simply don’t feel comfortable driving through a construction zone to go to a gym with limited parking.

Maybe once the construction settles down and I figure out how to find time for boxing, I might put the gloves back on. Still, just like with writing and studying the natural world around us, boxing takes time and dedication, even if it’s just for workout purposes or learning and practicing some self-defense techniques.

This is why I feel stuck and lacking a sense of purpose; three parts of me I quite enjoy all require dedication and discipline. There’s no way I can balance all three; two would have to take lowest priority over the one I choose to pursue. However, that’s not to say I can’t continue to dabble in the other two every so often, or even incorporate the other two into the one I choose.

I guess what I’m trying to figure out, really, is which of these is more “me”? Which of these would I rather have others associate me with or see me as? Some see me as a writer, most see me as a boxer, few see me as a nature guy. Regardless of what others think of me, what do I see myself as?

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Embracing Her Role as Queen by Joshia Warbaum

Been a while since I’ve posted one of these, though that’s mainly due to life taking over what little free time and energy I had for the longest time. In any case, I do hope you guys enjoy the review and, if you do decide to check this book out for yourself or have already read it, let me know what your thoughts are! Continue reading

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April 9, 2018

Basically me mulling over some things and just wanting to get it all out of my system. Feel free to comment or message me about this if you wish, even though I know I’ll sound like a broken record having to explain the same thing over and over and over again to everyone who does. Continue reading

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Thoughts on going forward in the fandom

In a way, you could say this is my follow-up post to Fur Squared 2018. All in all, I had a great time at the con and was glad to meet and hang out with a few people I haven’t seen in a while, along with meeting a few new people. To be honest, my main goal for this con was just that.

As much as I would’ve loved to have Sponsored or Super Sponsored this con, things weren’t going great for me, financially, prior to this past weekend. However, after I was hired on to permanent employment status at Emmi Roth (a cheese factory I work at here in town), I gained a better pay rate, benefits, and paid time off; so, in the end, things worked out for me enough that I could at least attend. I believe this makes my second year where I had to register at the door, the first year being…well my very first Fur Squared and furry con back in 2015. Otherwise, I would’ve pre-registered as a Sponsor or Super Sponsor. I feel I’ve been attending this con enough times where I know it’ll be a good con each year, and I want to help it grow. Continue reading

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Thoughts on my newest hybrids, Jackie & Roy

This has been something I’ve been meaning to write about, now that I’ve had my tigoat, Jackie, for a while. I have posted her ref sheet I whipped up and the only two art pieces I have of her on my art gallery sites, as well as Twitter and Tumblr. Continue reading

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Final Semester Self-Reflection and A Lot of Regret

I’m finally living on my own in my own place and have a full-time job at a cheese factory that, while it does pay decent, it’s just barely enough to cover bills and groceries. I’ve also been writing much more often than I did this past summer and back in September after I opened up for story commissions.

It’s not the best situation, financially speaking, but I’m perfectly content with where I’m at…except for one thing.

Have I wasted six years of my life with college? Continue reading

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First Fursuiting Experience at Downer’s Grove Furry Bowling Meet

A little over a week ago, I had the opportunity to suit for the very first time, thanks to Wolfletech. He recently got a new, pre-made, partial fursuit from LazyLupe and, if you’ve seen her work, it’s adorable. With two suits, he’s able to allow someone else try on Zalor (the name of his new suit) while he goes as…well, himself, or vise-versa, or two different people try on both his suits. During the Downer’s Grove, IL bowling meet, I suited as Zalor while Wolfletech suited as himself. Continue reading

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The Time He Desires by Kyell Gold

Finally got around to finishing this after quite a few months. This book in particular was one I wanted to get at MFF 2016 for sure after hearing about it off/on; I even got this copy signed by Kyell Gold, so that’s pretty cool!

Anyway, onto the review! Continue reading

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Thoughts on #whatmakesmefurry

Hey Guys~

There’s a new, trending hashtag on Twitter that was started by my friends Wolfletech and Rhye. The goal for this is to allow furries who don’t own fursuits (financial reasons, no desire, or tried it and didn’t like it) and furries who don’t/can’t draw get noticed. Though, I’ll be honest, Wolfletech says it better:

And I’ve come to know some great people in this fandom, regardless if they draw/own a fursuit or not. Even if they do draw or fursuit, they’re still genuine people who don’t let those get to their head, should they become well-known because of it. They have those talents and window of opportunity that, quite frankly, tend to get more recognition for one, simple fact: we’re a visual fandom that tends to have a short attention span. Yes, there are people in the fandom who have neither or only one or the other, yet still get recognized because of some other talent, a non-artistic contributor to the fandom, or, unfortunately, infamy for…something. I would make a list, but, if you’ve been in this fandom long enough, you’re probably already thinking of a few people in the fandom who fall under the latter description.

I’ve already written a short post when I “joined the fandom” back in early 2015 titled, “Thoughts on Being a Furry”. Some of my thoughts and feelings since writing that have changed; some have not. I’ve experienced quite a lot in this fandom during those two years, and I still love being a part of it, despite its flaws. Continue reading

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