Posts Tagged With: summer

On the Brink of Homelessness

Hey guys…

I found out yesterday that I cannot stay in the duplex once Ben moves to Utah with his dad. Apparently someone else was interested in renting the place, and his boss basically rented out to them instead of me. He knew that I’ve been there for months and contribute to rent and utilities when I can. He knew that I had no other place to go. And yet, he still cheated me out.

Earlier this week, Ben gave his boss his two-week notice. I was going to wait until Tuesday to let his boss know that I was interested out of respect; I didn’t want to add more stress on him and wanted to give him time to cool off.

Supposedly, the reason he didn’t want to rent out to me was because I smoke (yes, still) and I have long hair; if he did rent out to me, he’d supposedly jack up the rent out of spite. First off, I always step outside if I want a cig; I’ve never smoked inside the duplex. Secondly, I didn’t know I had to look a certain way to rent out a place that, I’ll admit, is falling apart and over half the outlets aren’t grounded. Honestly, I wouldn’t be surprised if he said “No” if he knew I was bisexual. So, after all this, I’m not going to rent out from this asshole at all, nor shop at the Ace Hardware he owns; he’s not having my money, that’s for sure.

So now I need to scramble for a place to live. I do plan on stopping by this place called Southwest C.A.P. (Community Action Program) on Tuesday, since I’d imagine they’ll be closed on Labor Day. Ben went through them before and says they’d pay the first three months’ rent once they help me find an apartment. In the mean time, I’m going to see what options there are in town that are cheap and have one or both utilities included; I’ll have less to worry about and I’d rather pay rent and utilities in one lump sum. I would like a single-bedroom or studio apartment, if I can find one; I’d imagine they’re cheaper and…I like my space and privacy.

Oh, and did I mention I start classes next week? Granted, I’m only taking two and I don’t have any on Tuesday, though I do start my new job that afternoon. Still…I’m so tired of all this; just seems like as soon as things start looking up, I get hit with something else as soon as I feel happy about my life.

Apparently this is the kind of life my mom wanted for me…

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Thoughts on #whatmakesmefurry

Hey Guys~

There’s a new, trending hashtag on Twitter that was started by my friends Wolfletech and Rhye. The goal for this is to allow furries who don’t own fursuits (financial reasons, no desire, or tried it and didn’t like it) and furries who don’t/can’t draw get noticed. Though, I’ll be honest, Wolfletech says it better:
 

 
And I’ve come to know some great people in this fandom, regardless if they draw/own a fursuit or not. Even if they do draw or fursuit, they’re still genuine people who don’t let those get to their head, should they become well-known because of it. They have those talents and window of opportunity that, quite frankly, tend to get more recognition for one, simple fact: we’re a visual fandom that tends to have a short attention span. Yes, there are people in the fandom who have neither or only one or the other, yet still get recognized because of some other talent, a non-artistic contributor to the fandom, or, unfortunately, infamy for…something. I would make a list, but, if you’ve been in this fandom long enough, you’re probably already thinking of a few people in the fandom who fall under the latter description.

I’ve already written a short post when I “joined the fandom” back in early 2015 titled, “Thoughts on Being a Furry”. Some of my thoughts and feelings since writing that have changed; some have not. I’ve experienced quite a lot in this fandom during those two years, and I still love being a part of it, despite its flaws. Continue reading

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Thoughts (Rant?) on Fursuiting

I don’t know why it is, but I’ve been switching between really wanting to get a fursuit and not minding that I don’t have one. While it is true that the majority of furries don’t own one, they’ve almost always been a huge part of the fandom; they’re the first thing outsiders see and think of when furries get brought up. Anytime someone posts a pic of their fursuit, primarily on social media, it almost always gains the most attention, both good and bad. I’ll be honest, this bothers me a bit.

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Yep, I Like Wrestling Now (Though I Always Did)

Original artwork © Pulex Ricky Paszek and edit © yours truly

Original artwork © Pulex
Ricky Paszek and edit © yours truly

Never would I have guessed I would get into something like this, though a part of me isn’t surprised. It’s strange, but I like the general concept of pro wrestling, and just wrestling in general. I don’t follow any particular wrestling circuits, discuss previous matches with other fans, or even have a favorite wrestler. I’m not even one of those people who’ve liked it ever since I was a kid; I didn’t think much of it. Hell, when I did start liking it, I was actually uncomfortable if people knew that I like it; probably because my mom thought it was stupid or something. By no means do I consider myself a sports buff, and I tend to get annoyed with sports fans at times. I am aware that pro wrestling is scripted, gimmicky, cheesy, and more akin to a theatrical performance than an actual sport. However, lots of athleticism and training go into those matches, if only so the wrestlers can execute the moves correctly. Continue reading

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Aug. 13, 2016

It’s been a while, hasn’t it?

I haven’t had much time to share any life updates on this blog between work and being busy almost every weekend this summer. I’ve also been focusing more on writing and trying to write as often as I can; I would like to try and post more often on my story and poetry blogs and elsewhere. That’s not to say I’ll lower the quality of my writing, however; I always strive to improve in my craft with each piece I write.

Along with that, there hasn’t been much else happening in my life right now. I’m currently unable to go back to Platteville in the Fall, for multiple reasons, but I will be going back in the Spring. I only have one semester left until I graduate; after that, who knows what will happen next. For the time being, I’ll still be working at Milton Propane through the Fall and possibly early Winter.

My boyfriend and I have been together for five months now as of Thursday. We’ve had our ups and downs, sure, but I think it’s safe to say our relationship is still going steady. We’re still trying to figure things out, both as individuals and as a couple; there are still a few kinks (not those kind!) we’re working out too, but all of that will come in time and effort. Regardless, we both still love each other very much and would like to live together some day.

I will also being going to a couple furry conventions in the near future: Furry Migration in Minneapolis, MN, and Midwest FurFest in Rosemont, IL. Of course, I will going with my boyfriend, but a couple of our other friends will be joining us as well; I know both of them will be a blast!

And that’s about it. I wanted to give you guys a quick update with what I’ve been up to and how I’ve been lately.

~Ben

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Aug. 26, 2015

I’ve been enjoying my week off so far, and I’ve been trying to take it easy for the most part. I haven’t yet started to get ready to go back to college yet, but I know that won’t take too long. So far this week I’m trying to get my room packed up as best as I can in case my mom and I move; I don’t know when, I don’t know where, I don’t know if it’ll even happen anytime soon. At least I made some progress on all that today. Continue reading

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Aug 21, 2015

My first semester as a Biology major is coming up in about a week, summer break is coming to an end, and I can’t remember the last time I updated this blog. (I know I could easily check, but I don’t feel like doing that.) Continue reading

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Aug 4, 2015

I can’t remember the last time I posted something on this blog…that or I simply didn’t bother to check, but I feel I should say something about what’s been happening with me, even though it may not be much. Continue reading

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July 3, 2015

Today, my mom and I went down to Sycamore, IL to visit my dad’s grave (I have today off due to the 4th); he would be gone for 19 years as of July 6. I asked my mom if I could spend some time alone with him and told her to leave for a while until I’m done. Basically what I did was “talk” with him about what I’ve been (and still am) struggling with: pornography, smoking, questioning my orientation, afraid of not finding someone to share my life with, afraid of what will happen to my mom, and afraid of what my mom will think of/do to me if she were to find out/if I tell her that I might be bisexual. Obviously, I would have no idea what he would think of me with how I’ve turned out so far and what I’ve been struggling with. In the end, I guess it was good to tell him and get it off my chest, even if he’s been gone for a long time.

After Sycamore, my mom and I stopped in Rockford for lunch at a Chinese restaurant we used to order from when we lived there. We then stopped by a strip mall where she went to a Christian book store and I went to this used media store called Disc Replay. It’s a good-sized place with lots of DVDs, Blue Rays, Videogames, CDs, a few gaming systems, and some graphic novels and manga. Even though there was a lot of stuff to look through, I usually would just brows the CDs to see if I could get some albums really cheap (around $3). I ended up getting P.O.D.’s Satellite and Rush’s Roll the Bones. I haven’t listened to them all the way through yet, but I definitely will eventually.

Other than that, that was about it. Right now I’m laying on my bed pounding this out quick, and probably even get some writing done and add to a few stories I’ve already written. Haven’t done that in a while.

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Getting Back into Writing…Sort of

Yep. I think I’m finally getting the writing groove back, but I can’t say for certain.

Part of this is because I started listening to a writing podcast called Fangs and Fonts while at work. Among the weird, NSFW silliness (I listen to this with headphones on), they give really good tips on writing itself, getting published, editing, etc. Check them out if you want.

I’ve also posted a few stories on my DeviantArt, FurAffinity, and SoFurry pages, even though they are still incomplete or just “a scene.” I’m trying to at least get out there a little and see what people think; I’m not all that familiar with fiction writing. I may also post these on my story blog too; the more exposure the better I guess.

I’ve been reading what I can too. Check out my Goodreads account to see what I’ve read, am reading, and want to read.

Anyway, that’s about it. Check out my stories and let me know what you think!

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